Can someone please tell me? Because I do not know.
I define myself according to others. I shape myself in light of their likes and dislikes. I cannot be unaffected.
I want to be unaffected. I want to be alone.
No I don’t.
Yes I do!
I want to be a freakin’ island. I want to move through space and time without regard to those around me.
I want to be solitary.
Well. I at least want my perception and conviction and state of being to not be dependent on other people. I’d really like for that to be the case.
I need some new… something. Someones. I hate the shallow but I fear the deep. Where does that leave me? Waist high in a load of shit, seems like.
Whatever. I shall push this down, down, down and move along. When all I’ve got to keep is strong.